Growing up was challenging, often times I found myself as an outcast, and never seemed to fit in with my peers. Difficulties would come when I could tell people’s real motives or feelings about me. As I got older, I continued trying to fit into my work environments, but over and over again it was like being back in grade school getting teased and outcast by the main group. The fears of not being able to fit in created many blocks to my success along the way. Through the years I learned to embrace my differences and accept that trying to fit into the corporate world or working for others just isn’t right for me, and so I embraced my gifts on a mission to help others.
I always knew I was different, so I frequently obtained tools for creating a better life, yet couldn’t quite synthesize it all and face the fears and get fully on my path. I have learned that no matter how strong one is on their path there is always more to learn about it.
Several times I tried different business ventures to embrace my gifts and purpose in life, yet many times I found myself with my tail between my legs back into a more traditional working world. Somehow, after tears, fears, and years things came together in a way that is unfolding in a greater way each and every day. I am grateful every day that I didn’t give up on myself or those that would benefit from what I have to offer. It seems that every time that I was ready to walk away and not come back someone would enter my life that I could help, like a beacon of light in the darkest of nights, and inspire me to get back up and try again.
Somewhere in the midst of all the pain and challenges and frustrations and anger I learned hope, persistence, love, and compassion. What will I receive next? Where are the doors I still need to go through? What wonderful, beautiful, blessed experiences are waiting for me?
For as long as I can remember there has always been a connection for me to energy, the universe, Spirit. Even as a young child I would have dreams that were premonitions, and dream as if it were real life. It wasn’t until I reached high school that I realized that not everyone dreams that way.
Jesse An Nichols George